Behind Those Killer Smiles…

4.3.08

…been a while since my last entry.. nakakmiss toh grabe..

December 30, 2005 EastA1B Caroling @ Corpuz’s

-First meeting.. uhm.. astig nya… napatingin..nabighani..natulala at aligaga ang beauty ko don ah.. while singing my piece xempwe sumi-segway ng tingin sa astig kong gutarista.. un na.. tinamaan ang magaling..haha un na un eh.. haha

…and the rest is history na..

…i guez 2-years is enuf kaya ni-grant na ni Santa and Lord ung Xmas wish ko n constant sa Wish-list ko.. Ang matagpuan si true angel ko..

…mushy na kung mushy..pro I Super Duper LOVE this man.. eversince.. (more than words)

…March 16, 2008.. a date to remember and a must to celebrate..

“Never did i find a man with whom i could give my endless care and love.. until someone came & made me feel that the person i’ve been seeking is finally here & thats YOU..! Thanks for coming..”

…Cheers.. to LOVE.. to STAY.. and to HOLD.. iloveyou so much jhel.. hugz

1-8-08

*Something good is going to happen to me.. This very day.. This very year..*

Truly i can feel it.. this is it na.. everything is changing.. in some aspects of my life.. Now palang kumikilos si Santa..humahabol pa.. Now pa lng nya napansin wish lists koh..

(1) my SFC Service, I started to join upper household last night.. Yes! I did it! Nakasama ko din ung mga nilalang na idol at tinitingala ko sa service.. Todo na toh hindi nato basta2.. Sayang nga lang d kame complete (di maxadong welcome) nyahaha Aun nga HHH na koh.. My mga babies na din ako! mga angels koh.. love ko kau.. (Te Arlene, Karla Camille, Lot, Rina and Ruth).. Kaya naten toh!..

(2) my CAREER, just now got good news.. makakalabas na’ko sa lungga koh.. new challenge itoh..new world.. uhm.. Kaya ko toh!

(3) my HEART, uhm.. never been this happy hahaha kaya namin toh!

yan.. yan lang nmn ang mga magbabago sa buhay koh.. Mga struggles ko before na may konting liwanag na ngyn.. I know too early for me to rejoice.. i still dont know kng kame2 pa rin ang magmimeet sa finals.. kaya naman.. i pray that i may be able to decide on things according to HIS plan for me.. Gotta have faith!

-The Journey-

Half the world is sleeping, half the world’s awake

Half can hear their hearts beat, half just hear them break

I am but a traveler in most every way

Ask me what you want to know

***

What a journey it has been and the end is not in sight

But the stars are out tonight and they’re bound to guide my way

When they’re shining on my life, I can see a better day

I won’t let the darkness in what a journey it has been

***

I have been to sorrow, I have been to bliss

Where I’ll be tomorrow, I can only guess

Through the darkest desert, through the deepest snow

Forward, always forward I go

*****

Forward always forward

Onward always up

Catching every drop of hope

In my empty cup

*****

What a journey it has been….

haha sabay tau sa journey.. saya un.. basta kaw kaxama… huuuuuuugz

1-5-08

*** when ur there.. waiting for someone… uhm.. try nyo toh effective, malaking tulong..haha d ka mababagot… di nangiiwan.. sasamahan ka nya hanggang dumating ung taong inaantay mo..haha

-SOMEONE by Rembrands-

We’ve been together now for such a long time
Through every trial we’d ever care to go
When I look back I almost can’t believe it
We’re not the same people that we used to know

With all the years behind me spent pretending
I didn’t need someone like you around
It makes it even harder to imagine
The life I’d be livin’, if I hadn’t found

***

SOMEONE TO HOLD ME, THE WAY THAT YOU DO
SOMEONE WHO NEEDS ME, THE WAY I NEED YOU
SOMEONE TO SHOW ME, A WAY THAT IS TRUE
SOMEONE TO LOVE ME…….THE WAY THAT I LOVE YOU

When there was no one left for me to turn to
When all the world I knew was fallin’ down
Oh there were times I could not face the mornin’
But everything’s changed since the day that I found

***

Uhm.. nice song, bagay sa beverage..pro mas PWEDE dedicate sa “someone” na inaantay.. nyahaha BOOM!!!

12-20-07

“it’s always the same.. you can’t find sunshine in pouring rain….”

haha La lng… aliw lng xe my sumagot ng stat ko.. saying.. “if you think happiness is all about sunshine.. i guess nobody has ever told you about dancing in the rain..”

** actuali ako lng nakakaintindi ng stat ko na yan… pro astig ng sumagot ng stat ko ah… uhm nu un he/she feels what i feel.. hanep! So pede pa dn pala maging masaya kng ganon… haha uhm.. ok n nman ako eh… mas ok na toh! mas ok na ang ganto!..

12-18-07

another sentiments… mga songs na kinakanta ko lng noon.. ngyn heart ko na ang kumakanta.. uhm super kelangan kta blog ko..

Where do broken hearts go?!?

- haaaaaaaay lahat nmn yata dumaan sa ganto… kaya lng hindi ako ready.. Sana wala ng ganto.. pede ba un?

When one part of ur life starts going okay..another part falls spectacularly into pieces…

- i thought everything turns 2b fine.. sobrang saya ko kelan lng pro sobrang dobleng sad nmn ngyn lng..

What do we mean to each other? Am i friend? Am i lover?…

- sabi ko na nga friends cannot be lovers eh.. kulet mo xe shel eh.. yan 2loy.. huhu

I don’t wanna leave you but I’ll never be the one you’re needing..

- uhm sobrng malaman ko lng na love mo ko ang saya ko na kaya… kaya lng ung malaman ko dn n na mas masaya k sa kanya.. waaaaaaaaah… i guez di tlga tau pede..

We have the right love at the wrong time..

- Kay hirap nga nmn tlagang magmahal sa di tamang panahon…. bakit kc ganon?.. ngyn lng nagkrus landas naten.. sna noon pa kita nakilala.. si cupid xe (filipino time..)

You are my sweetest downfall…

- un lang.. no need to explain… 1 nyt cry lng toh.. sna paggising ko ok na ulet ang lhat… atleast nafeel ko na love mko..

Kung naliligaw man ako.. Can i find my way home?!? waaaaaaaaaah as soon as possible sana… gusto ko na umuwi… Maxadong masukal ang lugar na napuntahan ko.. masyadong madilim ang paligid.. pihadong walang makaksaklolo sakin.. walang ibang makaktulong sakin kundi sarili ko lng… kaya ko nmn guro umuwi magisa noh.. khit na malakas ang ulan at malalakas ang kidlat.. malalagpasan ko din toh.. huhuhu..

12-11-07

Shel: sakit ng ulo ko
Shel: lagi ako ganto… sobrang isip
Shel: nakaka-baliw ba un?
Shel:
Friend: oo.. haha
Friend: DIVERT
Shel: how?
Shel:
Shel: nitatry ko kaya
Friend: basta wag mo siya isipin.. nyahaha..
Friend: work ka lang
Shel: k
Shel: haha
Friend: ako nalang isipin mo.. haha
Shel: lalo sasakit ulo ko
Shel: haha
Friend: ganyon?
Shel: ganto xe yan.. kng baga.. may marker..
Shel: ako ang white board
Shel: permanent pen xa
Shel: haha
Friend: o..
Shel: mahirap burahin
Shel: tanga dba
Shel: hindi pang white board…
Shel: haha
Friend: mabubura yun noh.. pag pinatungan mo ng pang white board na pen.. mabubura din yun.. so kailangan mo hanapin si white board na pen..
Shel: kaso wala me pang white board na pen..
Shel: out of stock
Friend: nyahaha..
Shel: o kaya meron man nawawala nmn
Shel: namisplaced ko ata o my nanghiram hindi na binalik

Haaaaaaaay! Nakakatamad ang araw na’to.. Gusto ko ng umuwi at matulog.. kaso dami pa kelangan tapusin.. dami pa pending at deadlines.. harhar! Malayo ang tingin at waring naglalakbay ang diwa.. Nauubos ang oras ko kakaisip sa bagay na di nman dpat isipin.. Yikes! ganto ba tlga feeling ng isang in**** o adik sa pag****. Naisipan kong magsulat.. magsulat ng isang tula o kahit na anong talata na aakma sa bw*s*t na damdamin na’to… Pero walang mabuo.. Puro tanong lang.. Bakit ganon?? Bakit hindi ganito?? Sana xa nlng… Sana ako nlng.. Sana magkatotoo… waaaaaaaaah!

Ang labo ng mundo.. Di na natuto..